Monday, October 20, 2008

So in case you missed it on facebook...

I kind of sort of maybe just a little teeny tiny itty bitty bit perhaps maybe might be thinking that I want another baby. It all started about a month ago. Up till then, it was NO WAY, NO HOW, NO CHANCE, AIN'T GONNA HAPPEN! And then I don't know what happened, but all the sudden my heart began to change and there would just be these little longings here and there. It took me about 3 weeks to get up the guts to tell my husband. And he responded exactly like I knew he would...."WHAT are YOU smokin?" I guess I should explain that we always wanted three kids but somewhere during the midnight hours of sleeplessness and poop and wet sheets that needed to be changed at 3 a.m. and the thought that our bank account could nearly double if I went back to work full time we finally settled on the fact that maybe just 2 lil darlins wasn't such a bad plan after all. And that was that. It was settled. No more kids! In less than 2 years, I could go back to work and all would be well in the universe. But I can't help these feelings that have overcome me lately. And I will be 35 soon. "I ain't no spring chicken," as my grandmother would say. But my husband is still in denial that I ever even mentioned the hint of a possibility of another. Which means, God would have to do a heavy duty overhaulin of a work on his heart if this is meant to be. We do serve a God who is in the miracle business thankfully. And I am on the pill. I call it my happy pill. For a reason. If I stop taking it....um....I won't be happy if you catch my drift. It keeps me hormonally sane. Whew...those 4 days of placebo pills at the end of the month are just about enough to put me over the edge. And then when I think about the finances and how we are SO stinkin close to financial bliss, it just makes my head spin to think of starting over with a newborn and FIVE MORE YEARS of being at home! I do work part time. But my teaching salary in Texas was more than three times what I currently make.

However, I once heard a very wise woman whom I adore (Lisa Welchel) say, "When making a difficult decision, take finances and fear out of the equation." Because we do serve a mighty God who makes things happen in His way and if this is His will, He will continue to provide for us faithfully. And I guess this also means I should go back on Weight Watchers so I can LOSE weight BEFORE I gain it! Makes perfect sense doesn't it? Well, I mean, just in case. You know.

8 comments:

circus of love said...

Congrats on considering number 3.

Well, you and I should go back WW together--for real this time! I am however NOT going to have another baby but need to get back to healthy after having had four babies and two miscarriages.

Yes... I think I do actually live in the same town as you. However, Cheney thinks we live in hotels!!!

Jonatha said...

Are you crazy? JUST KIDDING! :) Isn't getting pregnant the best excuse to not go on weight watchers? We were told the thing about money after our first baby, and I have to agree, if we thought about our finances we would of stopped right there. I can't imagine our lives without our houseful. And, it gets easier after 2 kids - seriously! But, what if it was a boy ;)

Anonymous said...

God works in mysterious ways. I have had the baby bug for a while now, but Xander's adoption isn't final and of course I keep thinking can I do this again? I am not sure I am up for the drama of adoption again.

So we just put it up to God.

Ashley said...

go for it. Now is the time to do it. You don't want to regret it later when it's too late.

This coming from someone who decided to have three kids in four years. I might not be the best person to listen to! :)

Rachel said...

Wow- I am shocked!! But, excited for the possibility. I think that you shouldn't worry about $$- God will provide. And it is easy to add a 3rd- no big deal I didn't think. Just a blessing.

Texas Aggie in Florida said...

Y'all are such sweet friends and so encouraging. If only my husband read my blog! He's the one that needs a little nudging. So far, he ain't budging!

Kim said...

How ANNOYING that I cannot read your blog on my reader anymore...

Just saying...

Make your life more convenient for ME.

There possibly (God-willing) will baby bambino #4 (and maybe #5) after seminary.

Birth control pills make me insane. INSANE. The last time I attempted them, I threw up every day- like I was pregnant. And I was crazy hormonal (insert nasty name here) and finally my dear hubby said, "Please, NEVER take ANY of these things again."
And I said, "okee dokee."

laytonfamily said...

we're opposites - pill makes me CRAZY! Headaches, sick to my stomach, FAT, angry, crying - pathetic! FINALLY off and thinking - #3 wouldn't be the worst thing in the world. While Hubby is telling me - #3 would be the worst thing in the world.

so - I sit with you, a little tug at my heart and a man whom thinks we're NUTS! ;p (redrum redrum!)